The Loneliest Day

While we know the crucifixion of Christ was horrible,  the day before when he knew his destiny and experienced the betrayal and hurt and loneliness of being Christ, must have been hard as well.

Have you ever felt betrayed? Well, Christ certainly did.....

We read Mark 14 in Life Group the other night and it resonated with me in a different way than usual.

Not only had he just left the Lords supper and knew someone had betrayed him, he also asked the disciples to stay awake and watch in  the garden and they fell asleep,

Then he spoke about Peter about to betray him also.

I have thought about this scripture and the fact that Jesus had to face his destiny in the garden of Gethsemane and anguished over it and accepting our sin, but I have never thought about how he knew Peter was going to betray him, Judas betrayed him. Some of his closest friends, his disciples, men he had poured into, and given himself to, betrayed him, fell asleep, hid and forgot him so easily.  People he had walked closely with, just forgot him so easily, but even more had complete disregard for all the teaching and warning and sovereignty of God.  To me, it had to be the Loneliest day, that day in the garden.  While going to the cross and all that pain was hard, facing it, and realizing the betrayal, the hurt and sin, must have been the loneliest day.

I can only expect that this hurt him and made him feel alone, and lonely that day. Not only did he know his destiny, he also knew that though he had poured so much into these guys, that they would betray him and not be by his side at all.

They lived with him and talked with him and walked with him yet betrayed him at the last minute...
Aren't we so much like the disciples....

 We all look at Judas as the bad guy, and while he was pretty pathetic, the other disciples were not much better.  I am not much better..... you are not much better, we betray Jesus and let him down daily.


We make promises to the Lord, then we just fall asleep and get over taken by this world and sometimes just forget about him. Then we wake up and we are just wandering in the wilderness like the Israelites.

Then sometimes, we are doing things for the Lord, serving, worshiping and before long we are not even worshiping him in our spirit. Its like the scripture says we worship him with our mouths but our hearts are far from him because we have busied our lives up so much with good things, but it's still too busy for God.

“‘These people honor me with their lips, but their heart is far from me;" Matt 15:8